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Saturday, April 6, 2013

What I want for every single kid



I've been volunteering to teach English and Math tuition to a group of underprivileged Standard 3 kids who live at a low-cost housing area in Subang as part of my church's community outreach efforts since January. For the last three months, progress has been slow and frustrating, with many of them unable to confidently grasp the topics that they should have mastered at their level. 

I found myself wondering if I was really making a difference, if there was something wrong with the approach we were using of trying to drill the concepts into their head - surely, if they were not grasping the concepts in school, how could I, with no background in their teaching, help them do any better? And two hours once a week is so little time, and they have so far to go - how could it make a difference? 

Nonetheless, inspired by the recent TEDxKLChange during which a video talk by Sugatha Mitra was screened, I decided to take a cue from his hole-in-the-wall experiment. 

Because of what he had experienced first-hand with hardcore poor children in the slums all over India, he came to the conclusion that every single kid, no matter what their background, has the innate ability to learn and discover, and it simply needs to be encouraged and drawn out.

He says, "If you allow the educational process to self-organize, then learning emerges. It's not about making learning happen. It's about letting it happen. The teacher sets the process in motion and then she stands back in awe and watches as learning happens."

"There was a time when Stone Age men and women used to sit and look up at the sky and say, "What are those twinkling lights?" They built the first curriculum, but we've lost sight of those wondrous questions. We've brought it down to the tangent of an angle. But that's not sexy enough. The way you would put it to a nine-year-old is to say, "If a meteorite was coming to hit the Earth, how would you figure out if it was going to or not?" And if he says, "Well, what? How?" you say, "There's a magic word. It's called the tangent of an angle," and leave him alone. He'll figure it out."

Inspired, I decided to put some time aside to plan and prepare for several new approaches to the session with the kids today that focused on giving them ownership of their learning, and motivating them by encouraging and rewarding personal progress. The session went better than I expected, and I experienced many small wins in the two hours I spend with them. 

Here's a summary of the new initiatives I tried out and how they went:



Class Dojo

Class Dojo was a behavior management app I stumbled across while doing some research for my company. As the kids walked into the community center, I got them to ‘register’ by typing their names in and to pick a colourful avatar to represent themselves as soon as they came into class. I explained to them that this was a system to reward good behaviour and progress in their work, for example if they helped a friend with their work, or if they did really well or finished their work quickly. I told them that at the end of the class, the two kids with the highest marks would be able to pick a mystery prize from a box of goodies I brought. 

Even though I only had a small laptop screen, the kids’ eyes lit up to see their names and their chosen avatar on the screen - it gave them a sense of ownership and community. The kids were very enthusiastic about keeping track of the points, pointing out who was helping who, and who had finished their work. This really helped keep the class of six in order without very much effort.

Previously, they used to be very shy and hesitant to interact with each other as they were still not familiar with each other, and tended to do their own work in isolation, only interacting with the rest when they got bored and started bickering or being cheeky or kicking each other under the tables. 

Having a mini PowerPoint lesson

Normally, because of a lack of preparation, I used to dive right into the workbooks and use verbal explanations along the way when they didn't understand something, which was really frustrating as their command of English is terrible and my command of BM is equally terrible, so often, verbal explanations get lost in translation.

Today, I started off with a PowerPoint presentation that I took some time during the week to prepare. The kids were very excited the moment I told them we were going to learn something from the computer. Normally, it's hard keeping their attention for even 15 consecutive minutes without one or another starting to misbehave. Throughout my short lesson, their attention was fixed on the screen and they started getting excited when I showed them pictures and examples of the different types of nouns that there were. I realised that having that short presentation (even though they had to crowd around the computer to see it) helped the kids warm-up and get into the topic of focus for the day. 

Showing them a lot of visuals and to explain the different types of nouns really captured their attention and got them thinking about and picturing in their heads more types of nouns in the exercises that they did later. The session was wrapped up with another recap of the lesson to reinforce what they had learned, and all the kids read out loud from the screen very enthusiastically. 

Worksheets

Today I decided not to use the normal fill-in-the-blank workbooks (which often come with a standard bank of jumbled up answers to pick from, which I've noticed makes the kids 'tembak' or try to guess by way of eliminating the right answers, without being really fully confident that their answers are correct). I printed out visually-attractive worksheets off the Internet instead. The kids got really excited about the new worksheets but were stumped as to what to do at first. I purposely chose worksheets with open-ended instructions such as write down as many nouns that you can see around you as possible. As first they were like, "Teacher, susah la ini" (Teacher, this is so difficult!), but I took my laptop and went back to what was presented in the slides. I reminded the kids of the different types of nouns and gave them a few suggestions to get started, and then left them to it.

They started asking questions (“Teacher, is this a noun? Is that a noun?”) and even discussing their answers among each other, which was a huge step from previous classes where the kids just expected to be spoon-fed the answers. 

Nurul

My biggest personal 'win' today was with one of the girls I particularly struggle teaching. Nurul has not been very participative, is constantly distracted, and withdraws when I ask her a question in the middle of the class. She has more trouble with English than the rest, and so when I ask her questions in front of the rest, I get the vibe that she feels put on the spot, and so she just refuses to answer. I have tried spending one-on-one time reading with her, but she can barely last for more than 2-3 pages of a Grade 2-level Peter and Jane book (usually with me having to demonstrate at least once first how to pronounce almost 80% of the words) before she gets tired and distracted.

Today, after I had dismissed the class, I was going through a Peter & Jane book with one of the other girls who stayed back to read. Nurul came alongside me, at first just out of curiosity. She started reading out loud with the other girl. The other girl then walked away about halfway through the book, so I asked Nurul to continue reading on, not expecting much. Not only did she continue reading, but she kept reading even when the sentences started getting harder. And she was actually pronouncing many of the words correctly!

She did come to a point where she used her favourite phrase, "Cikgu, penat lah" (Teacher, I'm dead tired of this), and because she had made it so surprisingly far, I said, "Okay, you can go because you've done so well. You're such a good reader!" But despite her complaining, something made her stay on for the next few pages, and before I knew it, we were at the last page of the book!


I was blown away by what just happened - it hit me that so many of these kids that are labelled 'difficult' or 'slow' actually have just as much potential within them as much as the next kid. Sometimes it just takes a bit of time to see it, the right environment to coax it out of them, a bit less pressure, a bit more motivation, and that potential reveals itself suddenly and unexpectedly. Not because you 'taught' it to them or forced it out of them - but because you actually realised it was already there and all that was needed was just some encouragement.

I want every kid to have his very own 'Aha!' moment 


When I started teaching at the Court 2 community center, I wondered if I was really cut out to be in education. Sure, I work in an edutech company so I understand a lot of the theories and principles of the field, but how much actual hands-on experience have I had? I respected and admired the Teach for Malaysia Fellows from afar, marvelling at their passion for teaching and their heart for the students they often affectionately refer to as 'my children', but I did not feel that same burning passion.

But today it hit me - I love watching kids experience that ‘aha!’ moment as they learn and discover things for themselves. I saw it today with Nurul. I saw it today as the class threw questions at me and as I explained why something was or was not a noun, they started going, “Ohhhhh...” 

I love seeing kids eyes light up when something finally 'clicks' in their head, and they finally compute why something is supposed to be a certain way. I love watching that look on their faces because it reminds me of how much I loved learning new things as I grew up.

As a homeschooler, I was not forced to learn - my curiosity to learn was cultivated and encouraged by my parents. I learned how to make potato print patterns as a toddler, how to make papier-mâché bowls at six, taught myself to bake brownies at 11, set up an online baking business from home at 17. My parents gave us the liberty of using the computer for learning at a time when that idea was still very futuristic and scary to many parents. I fell in love with Geography as I watched videos of the Grand Canyon and Niagara Falls. My education, rather than making me feel bored and stifled, ignited my imagination and made me feel like the world was the most amazing place to explore and discover.

It dawned on me today that I want that same experience for every kid. I want every kid to have his very own 'Aha!' moment - in fact, lots of those moments. I want them to not be afraid to ask questions and to know there's no such thing as a stupid question. I want them to discover what they're good at, and to realise that they can use what they're good at to help others. 

I realised that in whatever capacity, whether it be behind-the-scenes in an office designing material for a edutech company, or by hands-on volunteering at a community center, or through organising the XtraMile Run to raise funds for a school that gives underprivileged children a chance at a good education, I want to use what I have to work towards that.

Tuesday, April 2, 2013

Carrot cake with cream cheese frosting


Over the weekend, I satisfied a craving to bake by whipping up some home-baked carrot cake with cream cheese frosting! 

As I savoured the smell of carrots and cinnamon wafting from the oven in delicious anticipation, I was especially reminded this Easter that the reason we break bread and drink wine together to remember this significant weekend. It's a reminder that God came down in flesh, in 3D, to provide us with an unforgettable, multisensory experience of Himself. 


There is nothing less sacred about quiet moments in the kitchen with God than in church where a huge band is playing and a powerful speaker in preaching. God came down to earth so His love could penetrate every area of our lives - our waking, our sleeping, our eating, our working, our relationships.


Hope you had a wonderful Easter, everyone!



Simple carrot cake recipe
From Allrecipes.com
INGREDIENTS:
4 eggs
1 1/4 cups vegetable oil
2 cups white sugar
2 teaspoons vanilla extract
2 cups all-purpose flour
2 teaspoons baking soda
2 teaspoons baking powder
1/2 teaspoon salt
2 teaspoons ground cinnamon
3 cups grated carrots
1 cup chopped pecans
1/2 cup butter, softened
8 ounces cream cheese, softened
4 cups confectioners' sugar
1 teaspoon vanilla extract
1 cup chopped pecans
DIRECTIONS:
1.Preheat oven to 350 degrees F (175 degrees C). Grease and flour a 9x13 inch pan.
2.In a large bowl, beat together eggs, oil, white sugar and 2 teaspoons vanilla. Mix in flour, baking soda, baking powder, salt and cinnamon. Stir in carrots. Fold in pecans. Pour into prepared pan.
3.Bake in the preheated oven for 40 to 50 minutes, or until a toothpick inserted into the center of the cake comes out clean. Let cool in pan for 10 minutes, then turn out onto a wire rack and cool completely.
4.To Make Frosting: In a medium bowl, combine butter, cream cheese, confectioners' sugar and 1 teaspoon vanilla. Beat until the mixture is smooth and creamy. Stir in chopped pecans. Frost the cooled cake.

Monday, April 1, 2013

Reflections from reading Ordering Your Private World



Over the past week, I've been reading Ordering Your Private World by Gordon MacDonald - and thinking to myself, I wish someone had introduced me to this ages ago! I might have done things very differently had I read and internalised the truths in this book - then again, being stubbornly human, I might have chosen to learn things the hard way anyway.

At the start of the book, MacDonald starts by describing the driven person as being 'caught in a golden cage' - all the talent and productivity and achievement associated with driven people may look good on the outside, but driven people are really trapped in a cycle of striving and are never at rest. He describes what he terms the 'sinkhole syndrome' - or what takes place for driven people when a crisis hits. Because they have not built a solid foundation of inner strength, because their external accomplishments have not been in sync with a cultivated inner discipline, they crumble from the inside when the pressure becomes too great.

He then contrasts driven people to people who are called - people who possess an inner resilience that comes from knowing who they are, knowing their purpose, and knowing they are only stewards of what they have, in limited amounts - time, energy, resources, ability. As such, they don't strive to do everything or be everything - they don't need to prove anything to themselves or to others.

It was a painful reminder that for much of my life, I have been an incredibly driven person - displaying all the traits that he described of a driven person - goal-oriented, ungracious, competitive, impatient, dissatisfied, seeing people and things as means to my ends, and so on. The worst part is, because the world rewards driven people so well by giving them more achievements, more titles, more accolades, more power - driven people even start priding themselves on those traits. Or at least I did, telling myself that without them, I wouldn't be as ambitious - I would be unproductive, lazy, and I would be wasting my life. What started out as good intentions, as a desire to live my life to the fullest - often turned into something ugly.

The secret garden

I've been realising lately how little importance I've placed on nurturing my inner world when it hit me that my perpetual feelings of being tired and exhausted was not going away with more hours of sleep, more healthy eating, or more exercise. These external attempts were not solving an inner, deeper problem. I knew that my physical exhaustion was because deep inside of me, my heart was not at rest. My soul was not content.



MacDonald describes the inner world as a sort of private garden that required constant tending, that when well-kept, was like a secret hideaway, a source of deep joy. It hit me that my inner world was like a private garden left to neglect because I had spent so much time cultivating the external.

I thought of sharing some excerpts from my journal as all these realisations started coming at me - because I believe that I am not alone in this struggle. Conversation after conversation I have with those around me reveals to me that so many of us struggle with with busyness, with feeling constantly out of breath and unable to find rest. And I hope and pray that some of what God has been speaking to me might speak to you too, and that we might, together, be unafraid to take a U-turn and say, maybe we have been trying to do life completely wrong, and maybe there's a better way to do it.

Thoughts from a journal

March 27, 2013
I am learning, these days, more and more about what it means to find my identity in Him alone. I'm learning what it means to find peace with who He's made me to be and who He's called me to be. You would think that ten years on from hitting puberty and wrestling with all that teenage angst, I'd be wrestling with different issues by now - but I'm still coming back to learning to be comfortable in my own skin - learning to make peace with who God created Crystal Cha to be.

I'm being reminded that I cannot place my identity in my work, my hobbies, or my relationships - or the moment I start feeling uncertain about any one of them, the moment the dynamics of any one of them changes, my identity is shaken as well.

March 29, 2013
For too long I have been getting by on talent - now I am beginning to see that those less gifted will quickly catch up if they have invested years of practiced discipline, because they did not take their accomplishments for granted, like I often have. I may have gotten through college and university without much studying or effort, and succeeding in academic terms may have come easily to me. But talent is a limited source of strength.

In order to continue advancing forward without burning out, I must invest myself in building up my self-discipline and mental resilience. Spiritual, emotional, relational, career, or any other growth will not happen by accident. I must work to make it happen.

March 31, 2013
Why do I do this? I asked myself. I knew it was not my body or legs that I needed to subdue - it was my heart and mind I need to deal with. I am stubborn and rebellious by nature, and incredibly self-centered a lot of the time. I knew God was teaching me something about the why I do what I do. It cannot be for myself or for anyone else. That will not be enough motivation to deny myself when the going gets tough, to make sacrifices in submitting to another person, to press on when discouragement sets in. He reminded me that the only motivation that will sustain me through tiredness and frustration is knowing deeply that I have been called to do what I am doing.

When we operate out of a sense of calling, everything changes. We stop saying 'if only' and we stop looking for shortcuts, easy ways out, or little compromises we can get away with to make life more 'bearable'. When we are called, even in the difficult times when we know we could walk away and no one would fault us for it, we press on. Because we know that calling it quits would be denying ourselves of a God-ordained opportunity to be used by Him.

When you're called, you stop being destination-oriented and you start being journey-oriented. You stop asking, 'Are we there yet?' and you start asking, 'God what are you teaching me here, now?' And when you are called, you do what you do with or without recognition, with or without reward or pain, even if you need to swallow your pride, even if people don't get it - because it was never about those things in the first place. When you're called, it's not about the external - it's all about the heart.